This memorial website was created in the memory of our  loved one
HOPE HUGHES

  She was born in United Kingdom on November 16, 2005 and passed away on November 16, 2005 . We will remember her forever.




Our special daughter Hope xxxxx

(16th Novemeber 2005) 



The weekend we found out i was pregnant we were at my cousin's house. She told me to go and do a test as i was 2weeks late. I did a test. It came back positive. I did another test to be sure!!
I made a doctors appointment for the Monday and he said i was exactly 6weeks,and gave me my EDD. I got my ante-natel appointment date through,went to that,then had to be referred to a consultant as Kenny, (Hope's daddy), has got Muscular Dystrophy.
All was going ok until i was 10w+6days. I had a big bleed....We rushed up to the early pregnancy unit and was told i was having a threatened miscarriage so was booked in for a scan the next day.
At the scan we saw lil' bubs heartbeat,which was reasurring! We were told there was no cause for the bleed, and went home.

We had our 12wk scan a week later, (7th November), and they detected some adnormalities. Our lil' bubs had 'bilateral talipies', and' adnormal wrists'.We were worried now. They sent us down to our consulatant early, as we had an appointment the same day. He took one look at the scan picture's and said that we needed to go to the feotal medicine unit in London. He rang through (to St Georges,in London), and got a appointment for us the next day.

Me, Kenny, and my mum, went up there the next day. I was so scared. We got called in.....The sonographer was looking really closely. I was asking him questions, but he wasn't answering me. Then he said he needed to go and get a doctor. In came the doctor, who took over. I was still asking questions, but he didnt say a word either. SILENCE...He checked the blood flow etc... Then he turned to us. He said that the blood supply from the umbilical cord wasn't getting through properly, and our baby wasn't getting enough oxygen. She was also brain damaged, and wasn't going to make it to full-term. We were told that we should should highly consider a termination. After that it was all just a blur to me.......The next thing i really remember is leaving the hospiatal totally devistated,and headed home.

I had a phone call from a midwife. It was to arrange an appointment to take the first tablet, andi was told i would have a mini-labour. Going to the hospital to take that tablet was the hardest thing i have ever had to do. To this day i will NEVER,EVER, forgive myself for doing it,( even though it was for medical reasons.)

We had to go back to hospital on wednesday,(16th November), to start the mini-labour off.At 5.00pm our baby was born, 13wks+2days gestration. We were advised to have a post mortem.They found out our baby was a girl. 



We named her HOPE.
We held Hope's funeral on Monday,(19th December), at 9am. It was one of the most difficult days. We scattered Hope's ashes with my nan, on the 22nd December 2005.

This is the poem we had your funeral Hope sweetie xxxxx

Just for a while

Just for a while you had a shining dream,
Then darkness fell,
All around you, sadness and despair,
No light to guide you; no laughter there,
Just for a while i was your hopes fulfilled,
Then hope was gone,
My soul released from its imperfect shell
Saw your tears and caught them as they fell,
I heard your voices, sweet and warm,
I felt you touch and stroke my tiny form.
Like a butterfly thats lives and dies in just one day,
I left the world and flew away.
Just for a while i touched your lives with joy,
And then with pain.
But dont be sad and grieve each coming year,
Just hold each other close and say
''For just a while-our child was here''

Mummy and Daddy miss you so much our special baby girl xxxxxxx 

An angel never dies

Don’t let them say I wasn’t born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body cant hold.
It doesn’t mean I am gone,
This world was worthy, not, of me,
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face,
You have my word, I’ll fill you arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was “meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes”,
But that wont soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you ,
Another child you’ll bear,
Believe me when I say to you,
That "I am always there".

There’ll come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips,
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes,
That doesn’t mean I never “was”
An angel never dies............... 




A montage for Hope xxxxxxxx
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_-VQDj4KtU






Hope sweetie and all the special angels
hope you have a ovely easter and 
the easter bunny brings you
all lots of eggs 
xxxxxxx





10th may 07
well darling, mummy is 21 today and i cant celebrate cos you shud be here and it doesnt feel right also i know that the next 2weeks are going to be hard you will be 18months old next wednesday 16th its gone so quick
and then we shud of been preparing your proper 1st birthday but we never got to do that , please stay with mummy 2day sweetie its going to be hard, i love and miss you so much xxxxx
love always 
mummy
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